When I checked the message it said, “omg, Sonia! Gloria just go laid off!...hi btw : )”.
I was shocked at the message and the surprised at the demise of the manager who had fired me from the firm. At first, I have to be candid and transparent, I was glad. I had wanted her to feel the disappointment, fear, anguish, depression, and grief I felt when she decided that I should be terminated. I felt all along that she had set me up to be fired by recording my every mistake and constantly comparing me to a co-worker who had more experience than I did. I felt that she had conspired to get rid of me.
I sent back the following text message, “Hi Mary!, Glad to hear from you!! How’s your dog? Sorry to hear about Gloria—it is sad but true – you reap what you sow.” I know that was not really the Christian way to say things, but hey I am human.
My next emotion was sadness, I felt sorry for Gloria. She had been with the firm more than 15 years and had relocated to our city and state in order to continue her career at the firm. She was married, but she made more money than her spouse. Then I thought about the current state of unemployment and how it was taking the average person 26 weeks to land another position. I could empathize with what was probably going through her head right now. She may have been doing like I did when I got fired. She was probably calculating how long unemployment, severance, and savings would last until she absolutely needed to find another job. Then, I started thanking God for what he had done for me since I left the firm. I have a new job, which I enjoy a lot more than I did my old one. I like the benefits at my new company better. And I can work from home when I need to in my new job. Maybe it was the hand of God that orchestrated my termination and not Gloria?
So I started feeling guilty about my text that I sent to Mary. I realized then that revenge was not as sweet as I had dreamed it would be. I repented to God about the text message that I had sent. Then I prayed for Gloria….
Dear God, Help Gloria find another position soon. Give her faith and tenacity for the job search effort. Show her how to stretch her dollars and give her wisdom on how to handle her finances. Give Gloria favor as she interviews and sends out her resume. Prepare divine connections for Gloria. Bless Gloria and her family and let them trust you to take them into the next season of their lives. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
The Bible says in Ephesians 6:7 “Do not be deceived, God is not mocked; for whatever a man sows, that he will also reap.”
However verse 8 and 9 says “For he to his flesh will of the flesh reap corruption, but he who sows to the Spirit will of the Spirit reap everlasting life. And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart.”
Ok. For me, revenge was not sweet. In fact, it left a bitter taste in my mouth. From now on, whenever I want to allow revenge to consume me, I will take a dose of compassion, it is much more satisfying.